Have you noticed that your mood swings have been… a little extreme lately?

A crowd chants: what do we care about most? The outbreak!
The chant continues: how does it feel? Like we're losing it! Will we stop? Never!

Well, it’s all self-inflicted. Take Messycow — a typical day of my emotions goes roughly like this.

First thing in the morning, a hand grabs the phone and dives into a canyon of news apps

Checking the outbreak news…

Official numbers: Messycow peeks around a door and sighs
Unofficial numbers: Messycow turns red with rage and swears
State media shows cheering medics chanting we can win; Weibo shows people crying for help
A Foreign Ministry spokeswoman calmly lists decisive measures and low fatality rates
A Chinese scientist predicts the peak will pass by April; a foreign scientist warns it could spread worldwide

The more news I read, the scarier it gets. Let’s check the group chats instead!

The family group chat: relatives share good news, salutes to Wuhan, and a Russian virus-prevention method
The old-coworkers group chat descends into shouting, despair, and Wuhan cheers
The Wuhan classmates group organizes a bulk mask shipment
The moms-in-China group vents about online classes; the moms-abroad group fights about reporting travelers
The fan-club group celebrates their idol's February schedule and rallies votes
The overseas-Chinese politics group hurls insults in every direction while mud flies
Messycow slowly retreats behind the door as the mud keeps flying
Messycow sweats under a wall of questions: who am I, where am I, where am I going?

Nope. Nope. I need to get out of the house and take a walk.

A sunny park full of joggers and strollers: all is calm, life is good

Is this even the same world?

Messycow glares: this is just the calm before the storm. Then decides to look at her phone less

Otherwise, even if the virus doesn’t get me, the madness will.

The next day, still half asleep, her hand is already reaching for the phone

Right. So if I do end up with a split personality, the diagnosis will be two words: asked for it.

……

Okay, jokes aside. Messycow wants to remind everyone about a real thing called “empathy overload.”

Right now we’re all absorbing far too much information, every single day, and stockpiling far too many emotions — especially the heavy ones: grief, anger, anxiety.

If it’s starting to affect your body or your mind, take that seriously. Don’t let an oversized heart wreck your own health! You have to take care of yourself before you can take care of anyone else. As long as the green hills stand, there will always be firewood to burn.

When you’re feeling low, step away from the doom-feed for a while.

Or……

Messycow hides happily inside the fan-club group chat, where everyone is cheering and voting

— Messy Cow, Seattle, February 11, 2020

“Loving me is loving yourself.”